From My Beginning To Yours- Blog #20


At the beginning of this journey a friend of mine told me that I would love CrossFit, but, “not to drink the Kool-Aid”. I had to laugh, thinking, of course I won’t. I just wanted to get in shape and live a healthier lifestyle. When I signed up for the CrossFit Games Open I posed the question on our CrossFit TNT Facebook page, “what did I just do!?” When one of our box members commented “You drank the Kool-Aid” I laughed, thinking, maybe I did...

I had no idea what to actually expect from the CrossFit Games Open. When 16.1 (the 1st weeks workout) was released I completed my 1st full workout with knee to ground lunges (as opposed to almost to the ground). I completed 107 reps and was proud of myself for feeling confident enough to try. When 16.2, (the 2nd weeks workout) was released I started to strategize time and a game plan. This workout, scaled, included 25 knee raises on the pull up bar, 50 single unders and 15 squat cleans in 4 minutes. If I completed the 1st set, that continued for 4 more sets with a decreasing number of squat cleans and increasing weight on the barbell. This was pending each set be completed within 4 minutes. As I left Sunday afternoon for the box, I told my husband, my primary goal was to complete the 1st 2 sets and then go from there. I was most nervous about my stability for knee raises and how that would affect my time. I missed completing the 2nd set by 4 reps. I had ripped a callus during the 2nd set. In addition to throwing me off my game it definitely didn’t help with the squat cleans. Disappointment set in.

I took off from the gym on Monday and Tuesday, giving my hand some time to heal and opted for an almost 4 mile run, well, brisk jog, on Tuesday. I was feeling a ridiculous amount of negativity over my not completing that set, knowing I would have done better had my callus not ripped. Tuesday Night, one of our coaches, an athlete I really look up to, posted a quote- “I will beat her. I will train harder. I will eat cleaner. I know her weaknesses. I know her strengths. I’ve lost to her before, but not this time. She is going down. I have the advantage because I know her well. SHE IS THE OLD ME.” Honestly this is exactly what I needed, it may have made me tear up a bit when I read it too. Just maybe :).

Bottom line for me is this. Holy Crap! When did I start taking myself so seriously?! It’s OK that I didn’t finish the second set of 16.2. What matters is that I’m better than I was yesterday. The me of today can bench press 123 pounds, deadlift 225, and completed an 8 rep set of back squats at 133 pounds. This me, kicks the me who couldn’t squat without a box last May’s butt! Most importantly though, this me can run faster and play harder with my kids, this me can do more things without feeling uncomfortable and this me feels confident again in ways I didn’t realize before I had stopped.

I’m actually excited for 16.3 this weekend but want to end with bringing recognition to the athletes around me. I am honored to be a part of the team at TNT. Men and women of all ages, weights, and strengths that make up the TNT family. I am so inspired by the strength, dedication and perseverance around me and am thankful that because of these people I have an additional opportunity every day to learn something new. Thank you all!


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